Queen of the Southern Ocean by StevieGoss, literature
Literature
Queen of the Southern Ocean
Breaking apart in cold silver oceans
don't you know how it feels to be
falling to the ocean floor
of course you do
Not ever bothering to count the time
Never ever to be one to obey the time
Clocks are ticking, quickly and incrementally
You're wasting the now and eternity
enveloped in total darkness
underneath icy waves
Will you learn to swim?
Or at least try to breathe?
Before the blood stops flowing
and the heart, the heart I desire
the heart stops beating
before it stops beating
Promise to try and I'll stop drinking
Promise to try and I'll stop smoking
Promise to try and I'll stop everything
Anything to see your beautiful
Skies burning red on the horizon
We're coming close to darker times
I'm unsure regarding these feelings
Not that I could ever turn around
I cry myself to sleep every night
Am I the only one?
And I'm forever desperately lonely
Am I the only one?
And she thinks I'm too far away from her
Am I the only one?
People smile to mask their pain
but I cannot do such a thing today
It has been long, it has been tiring
soon it will be dark and lonely up here
Ten kilometers above the earth, in the stars
knowing very well I might never find comfort in her arms
She raised her eyes to me at the gate
but I could never believe that anyone would
I never knew you very well
There were brief glances
Nevermore
I went to France and slept
But I never forgot your face
You were in every dream
From Paris to Bordeaux
Letters written in expensive blue ink
Letters written on the landmarks of 1968
Letters written, but never sent from Orleans
Letters written, words I had no courage to say
Come autumn, I came home
Only to find you gone
Without knowing
I'll never forget spring
But I wish I did
It Never Rains in February by StevieGoss, literature
Literature
It Never Rains in February
I've always been sad
I've always been unhappy
and I think I know why
I'm always self-consciously self-destroying myself
in everything I do
no matter what
This is why
I'm sad
I'm lonely
This is why
I'll always be
a failure
Goodnight
This portrait will never fade
for it never has been painted
and it never will
It cannot be ripped or burnt
as it does not exist on canvas
not a single brush stroke
The painter, he is me
The painter, never paints
for he is shy and self-destructive
for everything he does ends in failure
for constant mistakes haunts him
and he is me
It is a blank canvas
it cannot be viewed
it cannot be touched
and without the paint
that comes from love
there will be no portrait
A Summer Day in Adelaide by StevieGoss, literature
Literature
A Summer Day in Adelaide
Don't you think I'm funny?
Everyone does
but never in a nice way
But I think
that I get along with you very well
We hardly speak
but at times
our eyes meet
across the room
and I don't feel out of place
even through I'm shy
I hope to tell you
that I would like to
see your face
To brush your dark hair aside
To kiss your lips
If you'd let me
I want to say
that I desire you
I will say it
some day
Touch
the light thermographic paper
How in the world
do you suggest
that I
concede with reasons?
Touch
the light thermographic envelope
If I were to commit
literary terrorism
would you
notice my real and symbolic suicides?
Touch
the light thermographic postcard
Why supply a fragment
of momentary truth
to expose
the subject's flaws as a form?
Touch
the light thermographic telegraph
Do we pretend or do we
actually do the thing
therefore only
pretended to pretend?
Telesales Consultant Breakdown by StevieGoss, literature
Literature
Telesales Consultant Breakdown
I think this poem is called Telesales Consultant Breakdown
The human resources lady said
you could stand being in a cubicle
In a cubicle, for nine hours straight
monitored every second but lunch
Fucking hell, this telecommunications company
drove you to the edge, with sales targets and shit
drove you to sixty hours a week, just for petrol money
drove you to a telesales consultant breakdown
and yeah
you're addicted to Fizz Wizz
and yeah
you've swallowed the little plastic spoon
and yeah
you're knowing the nurses on a first name basis
Lonely
with a one-night stand
Overweight
with a gym membership
Depressed
with an anti-depre
Falling apart in windswept locals
Lost outside of the world in the night
Mysterious, fragile and haunted
Lost for all words
I am not in control
There is no visitors
I am not in control
There was no visitors
I am not in control
There will be no visitors
I am not in control
Pinned to the avant-garde
Facing the eternity of darkness
Thinking wishfully not to be detached
Only to be damaged as Queen Victoria
Flashes of joy
never overcome tides of boredom
Flashes of magic
never overcome tides of loneliness
Oh, if only I was seduced
Oh, if only I was not scared
Oh, if only I never had anxiety
Oh, if only I was attractive
A cup of tea, a piece of toast
A bottle of coke, a slice of garlic bread
And so on, and so on
Not exactly Europe
but it isn't America
Not on the railway line
but never far away
So detached
as you can see
Rejected by
twenty-three girls
Loved by
none
Tea and cake
for sweets?
I like walking through the rain
In a park during the night
Drenched until it's light
I'm not even noticed
Maybe because it's alone
But I fear getting caught
Because I won't get away with it
To be taken to the altar to normality
And sacrificed in trendy blood
By bottle blondes and boofhead blokes
I like talking in my sleep
In a bed during winter
Mumbling until it's light
Unless I get a slap in the face
That happens a lot
The normals are scared and recoil
Or at least give me curious faces
When I open my mouth and mind
I always try not to speak
It's better to stay silent
Expression only causes trouble
Those crazy words of mi
I have come in from the sea
Glding in without oars
I can hear your southern rhapsody
Calling out my christian name
From six nautical miles out
Jesus Fucking Christ, Oh God No
I have fallen on the sands
To realise that I have awaken
In the glare of the midday sun
A pox on your enviroment I say
Bring me clouds, bring me gin and tonic
Bring me rain, bring me barcadi and coke
Bring me snow, bring me a cup of tea
I don't wish to taste or breathe
The salt water in my mouth and eyes
So I brush the mud off my pale face
And gusts of antarctic wind arrive
Cutting through these sodden garments
Like a surgeon's knife through skin
To my
Again I stare
Into an empty space
In a L-shaped room
It's raining outside
It's always raining outside
The water falls down the windows
The walls are ever so white
I'm a blot on the landscape
But one day, time will wipe me out
I lay awake on top of sheets
For I can never sleep
And I don't believe I ever will
Again I cry
In an empty space
In a L-shaped room
Tears on the inside
Tears on the outside
A thousand strings reverberate
I've had enough, I've had enough
But it won't end, it won't end so soon
Struggling to stay existent
Through nights I cannot bear
I stay awake in a trance
The cage won't break
Even if I cry and eve
Train to Mount Barker Junction by StevieGoss, literature
Literature
Train to Mount Barker Junction
Slow train to Mount Barker Junction
Upline over the foothills
Leaving North Terrace
Twenty carriages long
South Australian Railways
Bright red rail engine
Carrying the train
Over Goodwood Road
Through Torrens Park
Through the leafy surburbs
Up on the way to Sleeps Hill
You can see the ocean blue
Through the gum trees
Steam flying past
Through the tunnels
Eden Hills
Belair
National Park
Mount Lofty
Bridgewater
Over hill and down dale
Rocking and rolling on rails
Sliding past old stations
Rolling into Mount Barker Junction
It's the end of the line
They've sold the railways past here
No train's going down to Victor
No
Crusing down the freeway,
Going at 170 kilometers per hour,
Losing control as we go downhill,
Through the tunnel like lightning,
Swerving through four lanes,
When we hit the bottom,
Then that's when we die,
On the eighth day I say,
God created depression,
As the chemist said to the angel,
Give me anti-depressants to sell,
Split the profits with me and,
When the placebo fails them,
They may wander to your church,
Funding your new painted glass,
Now we're zoned out on Zoloft,
And become born-again agonistics,
Turn around the devil's elbow,
Hands losing grip on the wheel,
The hills in the rear view mirror,
Now the brakes have
The sun sets on the ocean breeze,
Mosquitoes swarm on my left arm,
I'm just a lodger at this shack,
Overviewing the deep blue water,
The cream white waves crashing,
Onto golden sands and silver rocks,
Under a deep bloodstained sky,
I'm just feeling homesick right now,
It's just that I've never had a home.
Belonging to no one but myself,
Never had a sucidal thought,
I wouldn't bother, I can't hurt anyone,
Because nobody loves me to care,
I hate myself and I need to get away,
So far away from myself this time,
But I have nobody to run over to,
And I fall back on myself again.
Back at breaking point yet again,
Loneliness means
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Digital lands sans frontiers sans autorite,
Google, Yahoo, AOL, BBC, eBay,
On Windows or Windows or Windows,
(Live wi
Computer world,
They try to find where I am,
They have my number,
So I just don't answer,
Digital world,
They have my address,
They send materials,
So I just don't respond.
CCTV on every street,
Secure lockdown on us all,
Paranoia reflected on metal,
It's no game really,
We have liberty,
We have freedom,
But is it just a mirage,
The scary thing is,
We don't know.
Binary code,
Bit bit bit bit,
Digital blood,
Splatters on my shirt,
Is it a trap,
Just as Admiral Ackbar said,
Or is it helping me,
Go faster, further, harder, stronger,
Headlong into a better future?
Entertainment is number one,
MP3 programs,
Is it swappi
You told me not to stand so close
So I will make it less obvious
You told me not to stand so close
So I will make it less obvious
You told me you have no interest
It's always the same old story
Why hasn't it changed this time?
It's always the same old story
Why hasn't it changed this time?
You don't want me
You just like me just fine
But you can't stand next to me
You just can't, you just can't
You just can't, you just can't
Every rose has it's thorn
Why can't you want me this time?
Every rose has it's thorn
Why can't you want me this time?
You don't want me
You just like me just fine
But you can't stand next to me
You ju
To a Teenage Mother by MistressSnowSpider, literature
Literature
To a Teenage Mother
Remember when all you had was moody teenage kicks;
A future of Sweet Sixteen, cigarette's,
And sixth year boys who still don't know that you exist?
You used to stand around the bathroom mirror with friends,
Trying out new ways to hide your perfect skin
and attract attention to your stick thin legs and size A breasts.
Remember, back then you called your parents lame;
You liked to play depressed, writing suicide rhymes in your spare time,
Leaving them out for friends to find to see what they would say.
You met him behind the local Spar, drinking cider from a can;
He seemed so mature and sophisticated when he kissed your shaking hand,
Three hundred and thirty three
Marks on my door
From knocking.
333 footsteps in my house
Of different shapes
And kind
On my rug.
Six hundred and sixty six eyes sensing
The same
Or passing by;
Some looking;
Inside,
Through my window.
666 ears listening quietly
To what I have to say
Leaning their hearing
Closer...
To my song
And feel the heartbeat
Alive, inside the toon.
333 - three hundred and thirty three
And all of them People
Some Friends,
All were watching:
Imprinted footsteps
On my rug,
And marks
Outside on my door,
From knocking.
:)
She steps outside
feels the rain upon her face
puts out her arms
to feel this is like love
love that only comes around
when it is time
leaves us wanting more
or getting just enough
She twirls around
catching the rain on her tongue
so refreshing like a lemonade
a lemonade that can be sour
or it can be to sweet
some like one and not the other
Her mother calls her in
she takes one more look up
something so nice
can make one so dirty
like what some do to us
pick us up just to be dropped
South Coast
where it's always raining
South Coast
where I'm forever drowning
South Coast
where I've been slowly dying
Breathing in the morning air
Breathing out a steady stream of steam
Hands through gelled up hair
Only an hour ago was lost in a dream
Looking at the watch three times
Hiding in the bus shelter from the rain
Trying to find words for clever rhymes
Watching a chip packet float down the drain
In a town where nobody says your name
They've kept you away from the Esplanade
The days never change, it's always the same
Often you just have to cry, breaking the facade
The bus arrives at eight past eight
To take you away
Current Residence: Adelaide, Republic of South Australia Personal Quote: "There's nothing I wouldn't be / Oh that's the gift of schizo" - Scritti Politti